I'm okay with present issues, too. Yesterday I had a long travel day, flying from Tucson to Salt Lake City and then to Portland, and driving south to Roseburg for three hours in the rain and dark in a rental car. I never know what will happen on a journey, but I'm usually okay. I don't assume things will go smoothly, and when they do it's a treat.
I am getting better at letting go of the future, but it still stresses me out sometimes.
- I am giving a deposition this afternoon. Will I remember to just answer the questions, without elaborating?
- Will I ever recuperate completely from the respiratory stuff I've had off and on for a couple of months? Am I the only one in the world experiencing this?
- If I lose 30 pounds, will my upper arms still look like bat wings?
- How will we do as a nation with the new administration? Will we squabble with each other over our differences - we love the new president or we're afraid of the new president - and lose sight of the many, many things we have in common with each other?
So, with regard to these future things:
- I will remind myself to just answer the questions.
- I will remind myself that this is a bad winter for respiratory issues, that I am not the only one, but only one of millions.
- I will remind myself that I am 68 years old and that my body is normal for my age.
- I will remind myself to be a good listener, to remember that we are all in this life together and we are, mostly, doing the best we can.
Tomorrow I go home, with another long travel day of driving and flying. I will set that aside until tomorrow, when I will live in the present, with my usual "take it as it comes" travel spirit.