Thursday, June 3, 2010

We've been watching The West Wing on DVDs for the last five months. Last night we saw the last two episodes of the last season. Today I feel sadness as I detach from these characters who've been in my living room most nights since January.

And I'm slowing down at work. I've finished up several Outlook tasks I do only once a month and then roll to the next month's date. This time I sent an explanatory email to my colleagues and deleted the task from Outlook.

And I'm slowing down at home. I have these "ought to dos", but when I have extra time I want to read or nap instead. Which I'm allowing myself.

I realize I'll miss the work community, but no one person in particular. And I won't miss the current work climate at all.

However, the thought has flashed through my mind more than once in the last day or so, "Where will I belong after June 25?"

One of my blog readers' comments was that the next few weeks will fly by and then things will come to a standstill. With all my plans for my post-work life, I didn't get it. I do now, though. I still have a bunch of plans. But where will I belong?

My older son has a current crisis - common for him - and part of me wants to leap in, since I'll have more time available. But I don't do that much any more. I may be able to give his daughters, my granddaughters, some support. But that's it.

Where will I belong?

This is not comfortable. But I suspect it's normal.


CherylK said...

Yep, it's normal. You'll go through all sorts of emotions but it won't be long and you'll focus on something you really want to do (and maybe don't even know it, yet)and a few months down the road you'll feel like this is how it's supposed to be. Been there, done that :-)

Teresa Evangeline said...

You'll soon realize the place you belong is in your own life...not to mention here, in our community of fellow bloggers... what great material you have to share with us.
Okay, now I have to share the word I was just given to post this comment: "realkin." :)

#1Nana said...

A year from now you will be at peace doing whatever makes you happy. There are relationships that you will miss, but the stress-free environment is wonderful. You can have fun doing things like painting your laundry room...oh wait, that's me. My laundry room is going to be beautiful!

West Wing is my all time favorite tv show. I wanted to vote for Josiah Barton for president. Don't we all want to have politicians who are moral and smart?

#1Nana said...

Oops, I mean Bartlett. i think that was his name.

beth said...

not even close to the same feelings, but maybe a bit i'm soon to be an empty nester and i'm like "now what".....time for me to do what i need to do, i guess. hmmmm, what is it that i need to do ?

septembermom said...

My mom is going through a similar transitional period. She said that she is starting to settling in to the reality of retirement. She's ready for it. She's 71. But I think she has her moments when she's not too sure about what step to take next.

I'm so glad to have met you here. I look forward to following you :)